Archive for gratitude

Trying to Succeed as a Person With Mental Illness

As a person with schizophrenia, it’s all too easy for me to get caught up in the flurry of trying to make money, trying to be successful and trying to get an as-yet undetermined place in my career where all my problems will be over.

I’ve been stressing myself out on the daily trying to jockey a better position either for my writing or photography, and as we all know, stress is not good, especially for a person with mental illness.

I’ve talked about the lightswitch effect wherein a compounding amount of stress is the lightswitch for symptoms to flare up. I’ll get worked up and then I’ll get paranoid and then I’ll get delusional and before I know it I’m taking another trip to the U.N. thinking I’m a prophet.

The point of all this is to say that it’s way too easy to lose yourself in the ambition of trying to succeed.

People with mental illnesses have to be extra careful in that regard. Read More →

Be Generous and Be Grateful

It may be obvious that I’ve been on a long search for contentment. Or more Ideally happiness, though I know happiness is momentary and isn’t supposed to be long and sustainable.

Anyway, for the last few years I’ve been working myself like crazy trying to make enough money to improve my situation in the hopes that once I was able to do so I’d find a relative peace and comfort with my situation.

I thought it was about standing and money and where you lived and all the myriad ways people trick themselves into trying to find happiness.

It occurred to me though that I’m already really really privileged.

I have enough money to go out to dinner and have a couple beers. I have my own apartment and I have two computers and an HDTV and a really nice mattress. I have a family that loves me and I have several close friends who have my back. Read More →