For years I’ve been balancing on a tightrope, swaying this way and that while I reach for bigger and better things on the one side, but am knocked down by increasing symptomatic concerns on the other.
That’s the way it is when you have a mental illness.
On the one hand you want to achieve, you want desperately to earn more money so you can get off government assistance, so you can move out of your section 8 apartment and so you can see a private psychiatrist but your illness doesn’t allow it.
For every step toward financial stability you make, you take one step into behavioral and emotional instability.
You want independence, but that independence comes at the price of forfeiting your mental stability.
This has been the one overarching struggle for me in my efforts to get better. Read More →