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You Can’t Make Other People Happy

The one singular overarching experience of living with schizophrenia for me has been the ebbing and flowing of the paranoia that I feel on a daily basis. This paranoia is a worry and an anxiety that people are constantly making fun of me.

To say the least it’s been a rough road. There are times when I want so badly to connect with people but I’m terrified that they’re going to turn around and make fun of the way I look or the way I move or the way I talk that I have all but resigned myself to the delusion as a fact of life.

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How to Separate Your Delusions from Reality

I’ve come upon a situation recently where it was hard to tell if something I thought was happening was actually happening or if it was just my mind piecing together little pieces of coincidence into some grand, almost terrifying delusion.

Namely, and this is putting it lightly, I was under the impression that someone was spying on me, that they had put a tracker on my car and that they could read everything I was doing on my computer because they had somehow maliciously put some kind of malware on it that I didn’t know about.

Suffice it to say I was under the impression that this stuff was happening for a night or two before I recognized that it all may have just been a function of my paranoia.

In these kinds of situations it’s extremely hard to separate your delusions from the reality of the situation and I know this all too well. Read More →

Whatever You’re Dealing With, Just Know, It’ll Pass

Throughout my ten years of living with schizophrenia there have been times of great stress and great paranoia. There have been times where I’ve been so overwhelmed by delusion that I couldn’t eat. There have been times where I’ve been so anxious and worried about interactions that I’ve forgotten to breathe.

In all honesty I’ve spent a good deal of time in a place so scary that I wouldn’t wish it on an enemy.

I know what it’s like to be so consumed in the moment by things that you lose your grasp on reality and every single time, without fail those moments have passed and I’ve come out the other side.

That’s the point I want to make here.

The simple fact of the matter is that whatever hardship you’re facing, whether it’s delusions or paranoia or voices or hallucinations, in every instance, those moments have passed. They always have and they always will.

I realize this is an extremely hard thing to remember in the heat of the moment when you feel like you can’t breathe but if you can just ease your shoulders a bit and give it time, whatever you’re dealing with will pass.

If I can make any guarantees in this crazy messed up world, that’s it. That this will pass.

This is applicable in lesser moments of stress as well. Maybe you’re facing stress from your job or you’re in a painful crush or relationship. In every instance with a little bit of time and a few deep breaths these moments, these hardships will pass.

There is nothing you won’t be able to get through if you just give it a little time and a little care.

Any moment you’re facing where things seem insurmountable has to break at some point sometimes you have to break it, sometimes it breaks naturally but in each and every case, with a little time whatever you’re up against will pass and you’ll find yourself on the other side of it saying, “That wasn’t so bad.”

If there’s any advice you’ve gleamed from my years of writing trying to help people who are struggling it’s that.

There is no obstacle in this world besides death that you won’t be able to get through.

That’s one of the major lessons mental illness has in store for you when you’re diagnosed and it’s the one piece of advice I give to anyone who’s looking for help. Just know that with time, it’ll pass and in a year whatever you’re facing right now won’t even matter.

It’ll pass, it always does it always will.

Again I know how hard it is to realize that in the moment of something trying whether it’s seemingly insurmountable or just inconvenient, just having that little dose of awareness though can help you get through whatever you’re dealing with.

I’ve been through my share of hardship and I wish that they had told me in the hospital that it will take time but you can always get better, there’s plenty of time and there’s no rush in anything and whatever is happening will have it’s day and then it will leave you alone.

That’s just the way life works. Just know that it’ll pass.

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Trying to Handle The Stress of Obligation

I’ve been having some burnout recently. There was an article in Inc. Magazine last week that discussed a study showing that burnout might actually be depression. Personally I’ve found that to be true in small components.

With burnout there exists that same level of apathy and exhaustion when faced with impending tasks and deadlines and the same hopeless feeling that what you are doing isn’t getting you anywhere.

These are minor though, as I view depression as a serious manifestation of these issues as well intense sadness and suicidal ideation and I feel like I have a good handle on what separates the two having experienced both.

What I want to talk about today though is the point at which you experience burnout but can’t take steps to remedy it because it causes stress.

Stress is not a good thing for people with mental illness. I’ve talked about the light switch effect wherein too much stress automatically flips on paranoia and delusion regardless of the steps you take (medication/therapy) to combat these things. Read More →