It’s a strange thing that when you’re stable, you kind of forget that you’re sick.
Things could be going well, you could feel happy and you think, “Am I cured?”
Hopefully you’re aware that things don’t happen like that and schizophrenia or any other major mental illness is a lifelong condition.
Still, some people start to believe that their meds are either, not doing anything, or that they don’t need them anymore.
I, as a mental health peer and advocate, have to unequivocally refute that and tell you, yes, you still need your meds.
Aside from the stigma of mental illness in general on the public’s behalf, there exists a stigma among people with mental illnesses that meds are bad, that the chaos in your brain is good and that pharmaceutical companies and the government are just trying to keep you quiet and keep you in the dark by making you numb.
I used to think that too until I realized how much better it felt being numbed and quieted than battling these crazy thoughts day and day out. I
don’t want to be crazy and that’s why I adhere to meds.
There’s also the argument that back before modern society, people with schizophrenia were seen as healers, oracles or witchdoctors having a direct connection to the gods, and that if you take your meds, you lose that connection and mysticism of being at one with the universe.
I don’t know if that’s true but I can tell you that in modern society, those beliefs don’t serve us like they would back then.
Also, I take my meds and I still hear God, so that argument can’t be that sound. (that was a joke).
I can even remember that the only reason I started taking the meds in the hospital was to get out sooner, but I realized they were working against the voices and the delusions so I never stopped.
The point is, these meds were researched and engineered in order to give us a better life in today’s modern society.
They are there to help us, not harm us.
My brother always uses the expression “better living through chemistry” and he’s right, I do feel better and I’m able to do more things when I do take my meds.
I don’t want to battle day in and day out for scraps of sanity and I don’t wanna feel like I don’t have control over my own faculties.
I’m a proponent for taking your meds and I think it’s an important thing to do, not just for you and your thoughts, but also for the people around you who love you and don’t know how to interact with you when you’re out of control.
Recalling the feeling of thinking you cured, this happens to me all the time, I’ll forget that I’m actually sick and then for some reason, I’ll accidentally miss a dose and woohaa, here come the delusions.
I would like to not be subject to the inconsistencies of my broken brain.
I hope you feel that way too.
So I’m here to say, take your meds, stay hydrated and get plenty of rest. It can be hard dealing with this stuff.
You’re not alone and you got this.